Quarter to Curfew

Wow...hi. :)

Blogger, it has been a long time. Almost like I don't recognize you anymore. Have you lost weight? You look great really. But my oh my, have things changed since my last post on August 1st. Life has filled with applications, new jobs, a revisted relationship, stress, stress, stress, stress, stress and snow.
I never really know how I am doing. It honestly changes every day. Depends on my outfit. Or how much sleep I got. Or how many people said hello to me that morning. Or how slow people drove in front of me. There are so many aspects of my life that I miss so desperately. But...no, nevermind.
I have no revelations to reveal. I've been thinking about so many things. None too profound. Mostly about things like what to buy my sister for Christmas or when I'm going to make it to the gym or why can't homework just go die in a whole? I'd like to say I've done a lot of growing up since this summer, but I really haven't. I've done a lot of sulking..! And bullshitting. And procrastinating. I've tried to master the balance of life, actually. And I'm still learning that art form. I'm still learning AP Studio Art form. I'm still learning social standards art form. I'm learning how to save my money (desperately avoiding spending my money on myself, more like). I'm learning how to vent to people and how to grammatically enhance all those vents with colorful curse words. I'm learning how to pretend to be excited about an event. I'm learning how to get away with sleeping in class. I'm learning how to not care about my appearence so much. I'm learning how to regret a lot of my decisions in life.
No, I'm learning how to regret not doing more in my life. I'm struggling with living a life of substance with evidence to prove all the accomplishes I feel I've accomplished.

...actually, that is exactly what I wanted to get across. I'm struggling with living a life of substance with evidence to prove all the accomplishes I feel I've accomplished...And finishing my Stats homework doesn't count.